Ka-POW! That was the real world smacking me in the face.

My, what a week.  I don't even know what happened, really.  It was Tuesday for about 4 days and then Friday for 2, I think.  It's very strange when that happens.  Really throws you off, you know?

Big news though.

I'm going to graduate in August instead of December! (meaning August 2011 instead of December 2011) Monday night Jesse and I were looking at the classes we're taking next semester and he was deciding that he'd just take 2 classes spring term instead of taking an entire semester next fall to finish, and then I thought....wait....how many classes do I need for my german literature electives?  Wait, how many do I have left? Wait REALLY, that few?! We got really excited and kind of shaky.  My adrenaline was pumping at the thought of actually graduating.  It does bring a few minor issues though.  First of all, we hadn't really planned anything for Jesse going to grad school yet, cause we figured he wouldn't be going until Fall 2012.  Now we've essentially got an entire year extra that we hadn't expected, and we don't know what to do with it! Should Jesse rush and take the LSAT and GRE and apply to 50 different schools when he's not really sure what he wants to do yet?  Should we attempt to teach English in Russia or Japan for a year?  Or, should we just pick a city, any city, move there, get some bum jobs and hang out for a year before grad school? WE WILL BOTH BE COLLEGE GRADUATES HOLY COW.  It's very surreal.

It's kinda sad too.  I've been whining all semester about how I am SOOO glad that I'll be done in a year, about how I'm tired of school and academia and I'll be glad when I'm finished.  But now that it is suddenly very real and very soon, I'm not so sure about that.  Next semester is my last semester on campus.  Next semester is my last chance to go to international cinema and divine comedy and all those other awesome things that only happen during the semester.  And after spring term, I won't work at Jamba anymore.  Holy cow, how can I say goodbye to all of the friends I've made there?  How can Jesse and I pick up and move off somewhere away from Landon and Kylie and Megan and Jesse's parents and siblings?  Will we make friends when we move out in the real world, away from out sweet little bubble here?  What if no one likes us cause we're weird and we read a lot?  It's suddenly...very real.  Very intimidating.  We are going to be adults.  We'll hopefully have kids soon.  I'll probably need to get a real job that isn't making smoothies and playing all day.

Wow.  I didn't mean to get all weepy and stuff on y'all.  The nostalgia came on pretty fast there.

Well maybe.

Maybe we'll get to live closer to my parents and Courtney (pleeeeeeeease!!!!)
Maybe we'll get to live in an apartment without cinder block walls, where we can actually put nails in the walls and paint and stuff.
Maybe we'll move somewhere where I can grow more plants (a garden? please?)
Maybe we'll get to see the world a little bit.
Maybe I'll get really good at writing letters.

Really, really good.


melissa said…
you'll probably miss byu, but you'll like being gone, don't worry.

also, if i can say, i think jesse should in fact hurry and take the gre. he'll do great without taking tons of time to "prepare." there's my two cents.
Kylie said…
Awww...I'm excited for you, but sad you'll be leaving us so soon! You could always wait a year and then go to grad school wherever Landon does his PhD. :) Yes, I think that's an excellent plan. Good luck! Planning the future is always exhilarating/terrifying. Definitely let us know where you end up, as we'll be starting more applications next summer, too! Love you guys!
Meg said…
Awwww I love you babe!
And I'll write you letters and then you can write me back =D
Ah I'm a little bit nervous for you but also excited for you too, this is a new adventure for you!
Breanna said…
Jamba will never be the same without you! I am going to miss you so much!
Unknown said…
AHH!!!!! I don't really care where you go, but if you choose to go over seas, that would be cool. 'Specially Japan. :D But, do what you think you should do! And listen to all them other college grad peoples. I wouldn't know :D

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